And I woke up, I woke up with a bad taste in my mouth. I woke up and felt like I’d been hit by a double decker bus and then again by a huge diesel truck. I woke up feeling bitter, hopeless. I woke up in the most vulnerable state of mind. I woke up with fear, and that fear was the scariest thought on earth. That fear I woke up with was a monster under my bed… or more like in my head. I woke up and opened my eyes to realize that I was in love. I was in love and in life everything is so temporary. I woke up with the thought that you are here one day and the next you could be gone. I woke up with anxiety and all these bad nasty thoughts of how you could leave me. I woke up knowing you would never leave me. I woke up with security that you are safely beside me every night and morning. That no matter how far we are during the day you always come back and are still closer than anything. I woke up with the thoughts of how and every which way I could leave you. I woke up knowing I’d never want to. I woke up. I woke up. I woke up.
I woke up and I was in love. I woke up and we are in love. I woke up and I am in love. I woke up today and maybe I will wake up tomorrow. Tomorrow is never certain but what is certain is that I love you and even if I don’t wake tomorrow I still will love you and even if you don’t wake tomorrow I will still love you. Loving you is certain. I have never been certain about anything before but you. You I am certain of.
Op, his name is Logan now. I have always found him attractive look wise. We followed each other on tumblr and never really talked but he would always be on my dash and I would be like “He is adorable” and like his pictures. Then in August I noticed he didn’t take a new picture in a while so I asked him to post his cute face and he told me we should just skype and so we did. I was in a relationship then so it was just awkward flirting telling him I thought sex was gross. I guess what attracted me to him was the fact that he played along and had this adorable smile . Then in October we started really talking , I got to know him better.We both were open books, just constantly telling things to each other. That made me really attracted to him. There wasn’t a thing he didn’t share and he let me ask him questions and didn’t do that “Oh, I don’t know just ask me a question” when I told him to tell me things about himself. I could just see how good of a person he was, there was so many things to him and I could see each angle without walls. Thats when I really fell for him. It wasn’t forced, I didn’t have to look for things to be attracted to..I just was already and normally that never happens. Normally I convince myself that some things in a person is attractive but this time I looked at him and it was already there.
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All my life I have wished for a lot of things but they never came true until the day I wished for you. Now here I am beside you everyday and sometimes I don’t even realize how lucky that makes me until you are gone: at work, in class, doing something with a friend. It’s not till then that it hits me. You are the greatest thing I wished for and I have you. That makes me the luckiest person in the world.
Seriously just had the best sex ever…
EVER
so many hours later…
Look what Britty made me.
The Maine outline and the words are sewn in c:
~~~~~ What I do when he is in class
